Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Falling down the rabbit hole

Ok so I have never written a blog before and set myself a challenge to start. The subject is around drinking and at the right old age of 43 I have had enough. Wow, there it is, I have had enough of drinking. The irony is I am not an alcoholic, nor a massive drinker, and I would even add that I enjoy it.   Fuck it, nothing beats a cold beer on a hot summers day.

So why all the fuss? Well its this; I look at the pattern of what is holding me back in life and it is a subtle combination of lethargy, procrastination and often self doubt. I have so many dreams and aspirations around my family, vocation, creativity, music, health, environment etc, which are consistently being sabotaged,  and I know that this somewhat toxic combination has a catalyst at its source and for me it is alcohol.

I also know that I am not alone. The amount of friends who have said, 'I won't be far behind you; lets do it together or are just about to hit rehab!'

So this blog is really a documentation of me giving up alcohol. It is also a social experiment! Who am I without the mask? That is my big question. It will be raw, unedited and although off piste at times, I trust by the end I will be in a position to be living my truth, rather than wishing I was! And in doing so, maybe inspire one or two souls along the way to do the same.

So the driving force behind the challenge is I am fed up of falling down the same old familiar hole and the following analogy fits really well. So as of October 1st 2013, I Jono Ekin here by solemnly declare that I will not drink any alcohol for 1 year! How terrifying can it be :)


THERE'S A HOLE IN MY SIDEWALK

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost .... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend that I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in this same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
see it is there.
I still fall in ... it's a habit ... but, my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter Five
I walk down another street.

And it feels GOOD!